This is the little conversation between Dean and me after Sam leaves (he does not only because Dean doesn't trust him anymore, but because he can't trust himself either). This is a key moment for me though, for once I didn't follow anyone, I decided to also leave on my own. We all had been wrong and right, I wasn't gonna take anyone's side.
Y'know, it's a painful moment, but so important, because it only made us stronger when we met again.
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“Dean.. what Sam did.. is no different to what you did.”
“What do you mean ?”
“You were suffering. In ways Sam and I can not imagine. But we did too. Losing you… there’s nothing worse. Sam accepted Ruby’s help for you. To save you. To avenge you.”
“I didn’t want him to. I told him not to.”
“But he wanted to. Dean, Sam didn't want you to sell your soul for his life either but you did. And then there was the demon blood, he wasn't rational, you know it. He didn’t choose a demon over us, he thought he was doing this for all of us. To save us.”
“Drew… I’m sorry. I still can’t.”
"I know. You need time. I do too.” Drew grabs her bag and stands up.
“You’re leaving too ? You’re going with Sam ?”
“No. I’m not. I’m not taking sides Dean. We all messed up. We all did it with good reasons. We all were lied to. We all tried. You need to think, the three of us do. You don’t need me. Sam either. Bobby does. I’ll go back with him, see what I can do to make his life easier.”
“That’s a good idea. Take care, sis.”
“You too. Be careful, Dean.”
S05E02
